dreams

Dear Baby H,

Throughout pregnancy, I have had a few dreams about... you?  I say this with a question because although I know you quite well- what you don't like me to eat, how you feel when you move, when you're asleep- I still don't know whether you are a little boy or a little girl!  Therefore, I think it's worth noting the two dreams I've had about your possible identity because I'm sure it may slip my mind that I had these dreams at all once I do finally meet *you.* 

During the first trimester, I had a dream where I was caring for an infant baby girl.  She was super cute and in my heart of hearts, I just knew she was you, Baby H!  The premise of the dream was one where I kept holding you close, but then in the blink of an eye, I'd realize you were somewhere else and have to go searching around frantically for you.  The emotions in this dream were very strong, ranging from the content feeling of having you close to the panic of realizing we were apart.  When I woke up, I couldn't help but think this won't be the first time I experience these same emotions in your lifetime.

Now, some people thought that since this was my first true "baby dream" that you must be a girl.  However, I wasn't totally convinced because although my dreams often do reveal interesting truths, my friend who thinks I'm having a girl HAD just asked me if I'd had a dream yet about the identity of my baby.  Sooo... who knows- was it the power of suggestion or are you my little girl?

As for the second significant baby dream, I had it just last night.  In this dream, I am pretty sure I was in labor, although it was like the time of contractions with lots of space in between so that actually a couple of days passed in the spacious labor room amidst fam and friends.  I remember wondering, "What am I having?" and then it was like I got a glimpse of you, Baby H, before I actually went through the process of giving birth to you.  It was a little blonde-haired, blue-eyed boy- prob about 8 months or so- toddling toward me and SO CUTE!!  I just remember being struck by how cute "you" were!  That dream was very choppy so there's not too much more that I can remember, but it sure was interesting! 

Just like my first dream, though, I have a feeling that this was brought on by the fact that Steve's co-worker stayed with us this weekend with his two sons.  There were a lot of comments to me about "good luck if you have a boy" and the like, so I think that's why I dreamt this dream.  Nevertheless, it sure will be interesting to see if any of these images resonate with the little one that you are. 

Well, I'm getting tired and we need our sleep, so I am going to close this here even though I could say so much more!   Tomorrow you will appear on the ultrasound screen again for us- just make sure not to flash yourself!  You've done so well so far. : )

Love you, Baby H!
<3 Mama