A Prayer for Baby H

Dear Baby H,

We are in the home stretch now... the official countdown from today is 12 days until your due date.  These 12 days have become even better since I made the somewhat difficult (at first) decision of having my doctor start my maternity leave a few days early.  Now, instead of working until your due date and praying I don't go into labor in front of any students, I'll be at home (still grading a bit) but feeling much more relaxed overall.  I think this decision is going to be best for me *and* you both!  I knew I was putting way too much stress into my body during these final days, and just don't want to do that to either of us before we embark on Our Big Day.

Speaking of Our Big Day, I'd like to just offer up a little prayer for us both.  Part of me feels bad that you are going to go into total shock as you leave your nice womby suite and hit the bright lights and cold air of this world!  I promise that I will be holding and soothing you as soon as I can, though, and when I'm not your daddy will, and when we're not, the nurses will be.  I'd like to pray that you make it through labor well, that my body is able to do its best for you- whether that means through natural labor or a C-section depending on your size (we've heard you're on the larger size...!)- and that I am able to stay focused and in one piece for you.  I have been practicing my guided imagery exercises *using a DMB concert as my happy place* and breathing techniques so that I can default to these healthy options when things get a bit rough.  On top of all of this, I think the sheer excitement of you and finding out who you are will also propel me forward!  I pray that this is true and that I am strong enough to keep going, with whatever and however this process happens.  I also pray that I will know for sure when this whole labor process starts- and not have to wait for your daddy to drive home to get me!  But now I'm just probably asking too much... : )

Everything is very surreal right now.  I can't believe we will meet each other soon.  I hope your first moments on this earth are blessed, preparing you for a beautiful life to come. 

Love,
Your Mom <3